well, here i am doing my disappearing act. i have lost 45 pounds and have 15 - 20 pounds to go. i am not getting back to my diet and as i have made this a new year’s resolution, so i have already broken it. i hope posting this will incite me to start. after all, i have a wedding coming up…daughter michelle’s…not mine. why is eating properly so hard to do? i mean, i feel so much better when i eat properly, but i still eat filet o fish’s. why? why? (le sigh)